What have I done?!?

I just emailed Norman Reedus and Sean Patrick Flanery. I must be out of my tiny mind.Bought the Boondock Saints DVD as soon as I came home from NC on Sunday. Have watched it and the first two deleted scenes more than is strictly healthy, I'm sure. Ask me if I care.It's been about 24 hours since I saw it last, must go watch again.

stolen from Anpusat

Last Person Who....x. Slept in your bed – me ... 2 weeks ago.x. You saw today – Nate.x. Saw you cry – Emily and Sandy.x. Made you cry – Emily and Sandy.x. Spent the night at your house – me.x. Shared a drink with – Nate, Billy, Matt... etc.x. You went to the movies with – Matt.x. Yelled at you – does lecturing count? If yes, Nate..x. Sent you an email – Wendy.x. Said "I love you" and meant it – NateHave you ever.....x. Been to New York? - No.x. Been to Florida? – No.x. California? – Born there.x. Hawaii? - No.x. Mexico? - No.x. China? – No.x. Canada? – No.x. Danced naked – No..x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happens the next day? – YesEither or....x. Red or blue? – Blue.x. Walmart or Kmart? – Gah.. neither if I can help it..x. Math or English? – English..x. radio or CD? – CDs.x. drawing or painting? – Drawing.x. High school or college? – Neither Other Questions....x. Last time you went out of the state – 3 days ago.x. Lucky number – 42.x. Things you like in a guy – smile and eyes.x. Weirdest thing about you? – my personality.x. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? – Well, technically... no.x. What book are you reading now? – Trying to finish Return of the King. I hate it..x. What's on your mouse pad? – it's blue and has a nice wrist support.x. Favorite game? – P&A (presidents and assholes).x. Favorite magazine? – Horse and Rider.x. Favorite sound? – cello.x. Worst feeling in the world? – despair.x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? – I have to pee.x. How many rings before you answer? – usually 1 if I'm in the house.x. Future daughter's name? – not gonna have one.x. Future sons’s name? – my son's name was Troy. Not going to have another..x. Chocolate or vanilla? – Vanilla.x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? – no, I sleep with a real animal .x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? – tour bus driver for a band I love.x. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? – find something to eat.x. What was the last food you ate?- the last 4 bites of Nate's cheese burger Hot Pocket at 4am .x. You bored? – often..x. How many buddies are on? – haven't looked.x. Last movie you saw? – Resident Evil - Apocalypse.x. Was it good? – it was alright.x. What are you doing? – sitting and staring mindlessly at the screen.x. Are you listening to music? – no.x. What? – When?When was the last time you......x. Smiled? – this morning, when I said "bye" to Nate .x. Laughed? – playing P&A w/ the boyz last night.x. Had a dream? – this morning.x. Cried? – last week.x. Were confused? – playing P&A last night.x. Were sad? – when I was crying last week.x. Fell? – hmmm can't remember.x. Broke a bone? – haven't ever.x. Got a present? – Nate gave me a cd of Slipknot songs.x. Bought something? – This morning.. gas for the car.x. Felt happy? – last night and this morning.x. Felt satisfied? – last week.x. Got in a fight? – It's been years and years.x. Hated someone? – there are three people in this world I hate.x. Cursed? – last night.x. Heard a good tip? – hmmmm....x. Favorite friends (male)? – Brian, Josh, Nate, Billy, Matt, Bob, Jez, Dan, Chester. (only one of these is an internet friend).x. Favorite friends (female)? – Wendy, Gail, Kara, Spooks, Stacey, Sanne, Alexis, Crystal, Olwes & Conny. (so how weird is it that these are all internet friends except Stacey and Crystal?).x. Favorite bands/singers? – Apocalyptica, Metallica, Slipknot, Linkin Park, Abyss..x. Favorite CDs? – Cult – Apocalyptica. Iowa - Slipknot. Master of Puppets - Metallica. .x. Favorite films? – The Boondock Saints, 4 Rooms, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas..x. Favorite things to do? – being online, listening to music, reading, riding my horses, walking my dogs..x. Favorite food? – anything with pasta and cheese or seafood. A good steak won't go to waste here either..x. Favorite color? – dark purple.x. Favorite places where you live? – My favorite place to go is Nate/Billy/Matt's house in Hays..x. Favorite places in the whole world? – I liked Amsterdam a whole lot. .x. Any last words? – "A drunkard is accustomed to seeing such things like his dead grandmother crawling up his leg with a knife in her teeth, but no one should be asked to go through this trip."~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME1) losing my family and friends2) spiders3) tornadosTHREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN1) to play cello so I can join Abyss part-time2) to ride dressage3) how to win the lotteryTHREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW1) Metallica T-shirt2) blue jeans3) combat bootsTHREE THINGS ON MY DESK1) my gallon of water2) Boondock Saints DVD3) hand lotionTHREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE1) follow Apocalyptica on tour through Europe2) play cello in a band with my friends3) have Perttu kiss me. ;) THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY1) optimistic2) friendly3) impulsiveTHREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY1) low self-esteem2) obsessive3) lazyTHREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE1) English 2) Irish3) MohicanTHREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY1) eyes2) hair3) wristsTHREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY1) teeth2) lung hammers3) jaw/chin THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU1) I'm a Republican.2) I'm a devote Christian.3) I love reading m/m slash fanfic. 3 THINGS I SAY THE MOST1) What?2) Sorry.3) Thank you.THREE PLACES I WOULD LIKE TO GO:1) Finland 2) Holland3) GermanyNAMES THAT YOU GO BY:1) Deby2) Tebs3) Nate likes to call me Kid.THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD1) Z2) Cohkka3) I have another, but it's a secret

the verdict is in

Assault with a deadly weapon with severe injuries = GUILTY1st degree kidnapping = GUILTY1st degree rape = GUILTYSentence = no less than 35 years to be served after completion of the 10 years he is currently serving for conviction of 2nd degree rape last year. He'll be at least 85 before he even thinks about seeing the light of day again.I have to say that the Detectives, the Assistant District Attorney and all the people who handled this case, from the moment I walked into the police department on 2 June, 2003 have done the absolute best job possible. Not a single step was missed, everything was done by the book perfect. I'm really proud of them.I also have to say that the attorney who defended that paskapaa came up to me after closing arguements, introduced himself to me and told me that he wanted me to know it wasn't anything personal. I told him that I knew that and that I knew that he had defend him to the best of his ability so he couldn't later say that he didn't receive competant coucil during trial. I appreciated the way the defense attorney handled his case. He asked all the necessary questions, he defended a no win loser case the best he could and through it all, he always remained respectful to me and the other witnesses. Anyway, we won. He's gone.

nähdään myöhemmin !

I'm outta here! Tomorrow, I fly to NC and spend the whole of next week there for court. Time to put that rat bastard that attacked me in prison for a long, long time.I have to do laundry, pack, buy court-type-respectable looking clothes and basically just get my ass in gear ! *HUGS* all around, I'll return the 19th or so, and will try to check in during the week. I'll be staying at a good friend's house for the week.

Holy Shit!!

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30 hours of madness

10:30pm Tuesday. Wake up. Shower. Gather things. Call brother 14 times until he decides to check his phone and calls me back. Says the ARMY is making him work Wed and he and his wife can't make the show. Disappointed, I drive to Billy, Nate and Matt's house in Hays.2am Wednesday. Give Billy a near heartattack when I tell him my brother isn't going. He calls Nate and asks him to go too. Nate declines. Drinking commences. Listen to music. Nate comes home and annouces he changed his mind. Much rejoicing occures from Billy and Matt. Watch Boondock Saints. Squee to self over slashiness and laugh ass off during movie. Vow to buy it asap.5am Wednesday. Finds self the only person awake. Watches Slipknot's Disasterpieces DVD while Nate sleeps on other couch. Nate wakes up during the last song and declares me to be obsessed. He is happy to take the blame for my newest obsession.8:45am Wed. Gauger arrives and everyone is ready to roll.9am Wed. Billy, Nate and I go to Wal-Mart to change oil. Note to self. They are slow and incompetant fuckers there. I recommend Billy buys car ramps so he can change oil himself next time. 9:30am Wed. Gauger and Matt head out. We tell them we'll catch up. HA! 10am Wed. Finally, leave Wal-Mart. Go to McD's for road trip food. Stalled by lady at drive up window who thinks she knows me. Escape is delayed but finally successful. 10:10am Wed. Wichita bound! I drive Billy's car. It's fun as hell. 2004 Civic 5 speed. weeee! Nate naps in back seat. Billy and I jam to Apocalyptica and have fun with the digicam. 12:05pm Wed. I made last toilet stop at Sonic before reaching Kansas Coliseum. 12:20pm Wed. We made it! Where are Gauger and Matt though? We make ourselves at home in front of the building. Gauger and Matt show up from their Kwik Shop raid. We play with video camera. Billy broke out the hacky sack and the boys played. I watched and took pics.1pm Wed. Barb arrives to get her ticket at box office. She says she'll be back about 5pm. 2pm Wed. Alexis finally arrives! Only 2 hours later than she planned, she got lost leaving her home town. 2-5pm Wed. Amuse selves while waiting for doors to open.5:30pm Wed. Get groped by very aggressive security guard. Nearly have boobs ripped off in their search for drugs. 6pm Wed. Doors open! Make made dash up stair case to T-shirt booth. Buy two T-shirts and launch self down stairs to floor seating. Scurry around looking for a good spot. Security makes us sit on the concrete floor like a bunch of pre-schoolers. Legs cramp, then fall asleep. Back seizes up. 7pm Wed. Godsmack comes out! They played their hit songs. Sully and drummer have a drum off session on two kits. They put on a good show. 8:30pm Wed. METALLICA!!!! hits the stage. At my first good look at Kirk, I lose my mind and scream like a girly girl. They play for at least 2 hours. I manage to get on the rail, as close as one could get to the stage. Pyros at the beginning of One nearly do me in. A crowd surfer gives me a concussion and a nice goose egg on my forehead when the security guy trying to grab him, drops him on my head and slams my forehead into the steel pipe of the rail. Once I know I'm not bleeding, I carry on. Everytime security guard jumps on step in front of me, I hit the deck expecting another body to land on me. At one point, Alexis is pulled from the crowd by security and is escorted by Gio, head of Metallica's security, to the side where she can be looked after. She was dehydrated and nearly passed out. I was told I could meet up with her after the show. I have a "moment" with Rob Trujillo when James asks crowd who has Kill 'Em All. After crowd reacts and quiets down, Rob stands in front of me and points his finger at me, mouths the words, "You have it?" and I throw him the horns, nod my head and say "Hell yeah!" He breaks into an approving grin, pats his chest and nods, mouths "Me too". Approx. 11pm. 2nd to the last song. The Wait from Garage Days. I finally say "Screw it!" and anchor myself to the rail and headbang my fool brains out as fast as I can. I think I was channeling Perttu. Nate and Billy said they both saw me headbanging and thought I had lost my mind. Last song. Seek And Destroy. I can no longer sing. Even whispering is agony. Despite earplugs, my ears felt like they were bleeding. 12:30am Thursday. Awake for 26 hours now. Since Alexis is coming back home with me, I have to drive her car because she has no idea where she is and is no condition to drive. Unfortunatly, neither am I because everything is blurry and spinning thanks to the blow to the head. Nate is a God-send and drives Alexis and I as we convoy to Hutchinson so we can stay at our friend Austin's house. Only none of us know where he lives. First things first though. We need water. Precious, cold, lovely water. We descend upon Kwik Shop like a bunch of staggering, three-legged, one-eyed, side show circus freaks and take as much ice water as we can manage. I decide that I also deserve a Mt Dew. I take a drink and realize that it doesn't even taste good. I inahle 44 oz's of ice water.1:45am Thursday. We pull into 27/7 McD's and call Austin. After some hilarious moments of staggering side show freakshow in the parking lot and a garbled adventure in food buying, we finally see Austin and continue to his house. 2am Thursday. Alexis promptly passes out on a bed. Nate breaks out the video camera and the aftermath of the concert is caught on tape. It consists of drunkeness, stories of Austin's drunken adventures with Brandon, who should never be allowed out of his room btw, and general chaos. I continue to drink water.2:30am Thursday. I finally have another toilet break. 14 hours since the last one.4:30am Thursday. I call recliner and kick Gauger out of it. I realize that I have been awake for 30 hours at that point and call it quits. After borrowing a blanket from Austin, I controt myself into the seat of the recliner and am asleep before I can get comfortable.Summary: Show kicked ass! I wish my brother and his wife could have gone but am glad that Billy and Nate came in their place. A great time was had. We all made it home safely. This was my 3rd Metallica concert but the first time I got to see them up close. It was Matt's second Metallica concert. This was Gauger and Billy's first Metallica concert. This was Nate's very first concert EVER. What a show to start off with. When I asked him later, if the show inspired him (he started playing bass guitar about a year ago) his reply was, "Like nothing else ever before it." *GRIN*

*howls*

Oh My God... *dies*
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oh yeah, almost forgot

Happy Birthday, Eicca! He's 29 today! *passing out now*

*packs bags*...

*packs bags* that's it, I'm moving to Finland. I don't care if I'm going to freeze my ass off and die of hypothermia and exposure to temperatures not meant for any human to exist in. There are way too many good looking men in that country! I'm sure they have an unusually high % compared to the rest of the world! *points and gibbers* Ok, so the one in the back doesn't do much for me... but the other three... *stares and drools*

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down to 5 horses now

Yesterday, Mom and I hauled Treasure and Echo to meet their new parents. We spent about 2 hours visiting and letting the horses walk around and graze. All four of us then took turns riding Treasure around bareback with just a halter. This was her 8th day being ridden... and the first time ever bareback with a halter. You would have thought she had been ridden for 10 years. I swear, that horse is as calm and sweet as you could ask for. I'm starting to wonder if I shouldn't have kept her! They had to rename Echo as they already have a dog named Echo, a very well trained cattle herding dog and if you say her name, she's right there. So, they renamed Echo the horse to Penny because they said she looked kind of copper. I hadn't slept by the time we dropped off the horses, I had been awake since about 7pm Thursday and by the time we got home about 6:30pm Friday, I was reeling. I dropped into bed and slept until about 1:30am this morning. Been awake ever since. We have a horse show tonight in town at 6pm. I think it's going to be a small show as there are 3 other shows fairly close by that are lasting the whole weekend. If so, this one shouldn't take long and I can get cleaned up afterwards and go to Hays. I need to cut loose and get shit-faced. It's been a looong time since I have.My Mom gave me some disconcerting news yesterday, I'm not sure what to think about it yet. It's freaked me out pretty good though.

yadda yadda yadda

Another uneventful day... tomorrow will be busy however. Will be going to Seldon, Ks to take Treasure and Echo to their new home. We're meeting my friends there at 3pm and they will continue into Nebraska with them. I'm going miss them both. We've raised them both from the day they were born. Treasure is 5 years old now ... Echo is just over a year. The herd is going to look different without them. :(But, they want to breed Treasure to SB in the future, which should make a very nice baby. :) Of course, I'll get to see them often too, as they are going to good friends of mine. My car is still stuck in the road. Luckily, it's not a road anyone goes down, especially when it's muddy. (except my dumb ass) So there isn't much danger of it being hit. Hopefully, the road will have set up enough that I can drive it out tomorrow. *crosses fingers* I don't really want to get the tractor and yank it out. I'm supposed to go visit my friend in Phillipsburg tomorrow, but I don't think I'll make it. I'm not feeling that great and I'm broke too. It's a bit of a drive there. Plus, she'll want me to stay the night and I have to be at a horse show in town Sat. I'm going to be worn out. I hope I have enough energy to go to Hays after the show. My plot rats are dead. Dead and buried. No point in trying to revive them. I think spooks is right, it's because I'm feeling like shit all the time. This job is kicking my ass up between my ears. Everything hurts all the time. Guh.I did do something productive tonight. I completely cleaned out the fridge and Mom and I cleaned the kitchen. Believe me, they needed it. Looks much nicer and the fridge looks quite bare inside. lolSo yeah, boring day.

this, that 'n' the other...

Ready for some insanity? Sectioned for your reading ease. ;)Mom took SB to the chiro for me as I was supposed to work tonight (but that's a whole nuther story). Mom said that SB was out in the 8th vertibre up from his hips, his withers, his left shoulder and a rib. Immediately afterwards, Mom walked him out and SB was stretching his legs out and really going, she said he had this look of "OMG, that feels goooood" The chiro said to let him rest tomorrow and on Friday PM to take him out for a easy ride and see how he does. As long as he does ok Friday, he should be good to go. He's a human chiro but will work on horses under a vet's supervision. Yesterday, SB went to the vet to rule out lameness issues in his legs. Vet said his legs are fine and was particularly impressed with his hocks. He pulled his hind leg up tight and held it for what seemed like forever to me... and then had him trot off right away. He remarked that it "Definitely isn't his hocks, he didn't even gimp on the first stride." He seemed pleased about that. lolTotal for the vet visit: $45Total for Chiro adjustment: $25On more horse news.... Treasure and Echo are scheduled to go to their new home in Nebraska. They'll be in a great home, my friend's are buying them. They innitially came out to look at Treasure a few weeks ago and loved her... but they also fell in love with Echo, which is SB and Sky's red roan filly. (They also own a SB baby born this year, they bred their mare to him and they adore her!) So anyway, Friday, we're going to meet them 1/2 way with them. I'm going to miss them both! Today, I went to Hays and got a massage. My back, neck, and shoulders were just wrecked from work. It was about 1:30pm when I left the massage place and I was exhausted. I had been awake since 7pm yesterday and there was no way I could make it home. So, I went to my buddy Gauger's place and crashed in his room while he went to see his mom. About 7pm, I woke up and headed for the farm so I could get my stuff and then drive to Ness for work.About 1 mile from the farm, I got stuck. Yep, my car is now sitting in the field road, sideways and axle deep in mud. What was really fun was the walk to the house... in the mud... in the rain... in the dark... (except for the brilliant flashes of lightning all around me) Of course, given the landscape, I was the tallest thing out there. Oh and I was wearing sandels. By the time I got to the house, I was panting, sweating, shivering, had 2 inches of mud stuck to the bottom of my sandels and had mud clear up my legs. I was wearing shorts too, which is not normal for me.I was not amused.

OMG

he needs to stop this before I hurt myself.Isn't it illegal to be this fucking beautiful?? *deaded*

*sobbing*

My ears hurt! Ear infections suck ass. This time, I have them in both ears. I'll get one in one ear or the other, every year, but it's pretty rare for both ears to be hit at the same time.*bawls* God Almighty, it hurts. I need another job, this one is destroying my body, bit by bit. I need to get a driving job again, it never bothered my back and I adore driving.Should find out later today if my Bro is going to the Metallica concert with me or not. We have tickets, but with his new orders to transfer to the Netherlands in Oct, it just depends on how long it takes to process him out of Fort Carson, CO. *crosses fingers*Today, I get the unmitigated joy of driving 40 miles to the farm, loading my horse in the trailer and hauling him 45 miles to the vet in Hays, drive back to the farm, drop him off, sleep... and then drive back to Ness in time to work tonight at 10pm. My horse is stiff on the right side and I think he needs to go to the chiro, but the chiro needs a referral from my vet in order to work on him. So, off to the vet we go. Oh yeah, and I just got off work 90 minutes ago... when will I be able to sleep again?I need a massage. Badly. In the worst possible way. EVERY muscle and joint in my body is in agony. *cries*Send help.

*sobbing*

My ears hurt! Ear infections suck ass. This time, I have them in both ears. I'll get one in one ear or the other, every year, but it's pretty rare for both ears to be hit at the same time.*bawls* God Almighty, it hurts. I need another job, this one is destroying my body, bit by bit. I need to get a driving job again, it never bothered my back and I adore driving.Should find out later today if my Bro is going to the Metallica concert with me or not. We have tickets, but with his new orders to transfer to the Netherlands in Oct, it just depends on how long it takes to process him out of Fort Carson, CO. *crosses fingers*Today, I get the unmitigated joy of driving 40 miles to the farm, loading my horse in the trailer and hauling him 45 miles to the vet in Hays, drive back to the farm, drop him off, sleep... and then drive back to Ness in time to work tonight at 10pm. My horse is stiff on the right side and I think he needs to go to the chiro, but the chiro needs a referral from my vet in order to work on him. So, off to the vet we go. Oh yeah, and I just got off work 90 minutes ago... when will I be able to sleep again?I need a massage. Badly. In the worst possible way. EVERY muscle and joint in my body is in agony. *cries*Send help.

bwahaha

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I do love looking at them... and listening to them... and watching them play...*stares*

Good G...

Good God, I'm tired.Work last night was a bitch, just an utter bottom-feeding, bitch. I'm so tired, I can't even think of words to describe it correctly.Have been waiting for it to get light enough so I can drive home and take care of my dogs. Driving in anything less than full light is dangerous around here because of the damn deer. I'm so tired, I don't know if I can make it the 40 miles it takes to get home... but I have to. Rocky and Stella need to go outside, need to eat breakfast... and then I can just melt away into my lovely bed... Lucky for me, stewardess wrote a smooookin' Hoot/Todd fic. That will give me something nice to think about on the drive home. *happy sigh*I'm wondering about the possibility of seeing a head Dr about my paranoia issues. Things are starting to get out of control.Need to book plane tickets to NC so I can go to court in Sept and put that bastard away for the rest of his natural life... and then some. He's looking at about 130 years, I think. The District Attorney of Moore County in North Carolina kicks ass, just so you know. *nods* Of course, this means another week off work... am somewhat looking forward to going to NC. I mean, court isn't going to be fun by any means, but it's not the first time I've had to go to court and put a violent criminal in prison for a long time. At the same time, I'll be able to see some of my friends in NC that I haven't seen since I left, that will be nice... I miss them. See, this is worrying me too. How can I swing from "ew court" to "yay friends" all in the same thought? I don't just mean that particular example either. I'm talking, my whole life is like that. I'm so easily distracted, it's not even funny. Am I too reactive to outside influences? I can be on top of the world one moment and pissed off, hurt, or freaked out in the next... and visa-verse. If I'm upset, it's pretty easy to make me laugh and forget about it for awhile. Is that normal? It's the least of my worries right now, to be honest, but something that's been bugging me for awhile too. Back to my paranoia. I need to do something about it. Things are weirding me out that shouldn't... thoughts of imaginary conversations running through my head until I'm convinced they are real... Damnit. I AM NOT CRAZY.I'm tired. The sun is up, I have to go take care of my dogs now.

*wibbles*

*pets the pretty* *wibbles more*

I feel li...

I feel like a dick.

I love .... (idea stolen from spooks)

my God; being woken in the morning by Stella licking my nose and snuffeling happily into my ear; hugs from Perttu; knowing that I've beaten the lure of Mt Dew forever; riding horses with my Mom on a breezy summer day in Kansas with the wide open sky above and seeing not a single sign of civilization for miles around; Apocalyptica's music; going to concerts; my brother home from the war; seeing my nephews run at me with open arms and smiles just for me; reading Apofic; unexpected phone calls from internet friends; the internet; my friends that I've gained from all over the world because of the internet; traveling overseas; my country; seeing my 23 year old mare run and play like a young colt again; watching my almost 11 year old boxer, Rocky, bounce around the house like a puppy; seeing baby horses run just for the sheer joy of it; my life; my family; taking walks with Rocky and Stella on a nice evening; Stella curling up next to my belly under the blankets at night just before I fall asleep to the sound of Conclusion by Apocalyptica.

eeeeeeeeeeek!

I cannot resist the lure of the poll...What's on your bedside table?I don't have oneWhat is the geekiest part of your music collection?Kiss - The ElderWhat do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?I usually take a swig off the milk jugWhat is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?The Black Stallion... at the end... when they are running... or SeabiscuitDo you have a completely irrational fear?trees and dolls. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?blushing. I turn BRIGHT red quite easily ... and I start giggling when I'm nervousDo you ever have to beg?Occasionally.Are you a pyromaniac?No.Do you have too many love interests?No.Do you know anyone famous?hmmm...well, I know the father of two pretty famous guys that happen to be professional athletes and I've met his sons on several occasions... and I've met a few other famous people and spoke to one on the phone... and no, I'm not telling.Describe your bed.Full sized. 4 pillows. 2 comforters.Spontaneous or plan?Both. I love to make plans but being spontaneous is a lot more fun.Who should play you in a movie about your life?MeDo you know how to play poker?noWhat do you carry with you at all times?wallet... knife... Apo necklace and if I'm traveling any distance alone, my pistolHow do you drive?I obey the traffic laws, I know how to work a 4 way stop sign and I always pay attention to other cars around me... and I NEVER talk on a cell phone while driving.What do you miss most about being little?going to my Grandma's farmAre you happy with your given name?eh.. it's alrightHow much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?no one can count that highWhat color is your bedroom?White ceiling, pale beige walls... fugly carpetWhat was the last song you were listening to?Live version Path by ApocalypticaHave you ever been in a play?Yeah, I was one of the old ladies in Arsenic and Old Lace in High SchoolWho are your best friends?I have lots of really great friends. I don't favor any of them over another. but if I have to list one, I'd say my brother because he knows more about me than anyone.Have you ever been in love?yeahDo you talk a lot?depends on who I am with and what mood I'm inDo you like yourself and believe in yourself?for the most part, yesHave you ever done any illegal drugs?YesssDo you think you're cute?Hell noDo poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?it variesDo you consider yourself to be a nice person?yesDo you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?No boyfriend, so friends. What is your ideal marriage location?a churchWhich musical instrument do you wish you could play?CelloFavorite fabric?denimWhat kind of bedding do you use?down filled comfortersWhat kind of soap do you use?Arbonne body wash. It's AMAZING stuff.What's the one language you want to learn?Minä haluan oppia suomea! = I want to learn Finnish!What do you order at a bar?water or sodaHave you ever pierced your body parts?my ears twice but never wear any.... my tongue... my right eyebrow and my lebret (below my lower lip in the center) they've all grown shut now.Do you have tattoos?yes. three. Right thigh, right top of arm and right side of my skullWould you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?if I had done it, I would admit it if askedWhat's one of the "funniest" things you've ever done?I made a banner on a white sheet and hauled it across the ocean to display at a concert in Amsterdam that said "PERTTU! SOITA ALASTI!" which mean, Perttu! Play Naked. Antero and Paavo saw it and nearly toppled out of their chairs in the middle of the show.Do you drive stick?yes and I love itWhat's one trait you hate in a person?cruelty to animalsWhat kind of watch(es) do you wear?don't wear oneMost frivolous purchase?I bought a horse at a sale, when I probably shouldn't have. Do you consider yourself materialistic?well, if you call buying everything I see with Apocalyptica or Metallica written on it "materialistic" then yes.What do you cook the best?I can make some good spaghetti and sauce with ground venisonFavorite writing instrument?keyboardDo you prefer to stand out or blend in?depends on who and where and what. I usually end up standing out.Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?I do all the time.What's one car you will never buy?a geoHave you ever done drugs?yesssWhat kind of books do you like to read?anything that's written wellIf you won the lottery, what would you do first?faint. then build my mom a new house on her farmland... put up a nice barn for our horses and new fencing... then buy plane tickets to Helsinki. Burial or cremation?burialHow many online journals do you read regularly?a fewWhat's one thing you're a sore loser at?I'm not a sore loser, I'm quite used to it.If you don't like a person, how do you show it?I don't speak to themDo you cry in front of friends?I prefer to cry alone but I have occasionally cried in front of friends.What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?a few people have told me that at first glance, I'm intimidating. o.OWhat's one thing you prefer to do alone?almost everything. I'm very much a secluded personWhat's the worst thing you ever said to someone?when I was young and stupid, I told a lawyer that I didn't think my Mom was a very good mother. :( I wish I hadn't. When's the last time you cried?28 June 2004Favorite communication method?internet... it's free! well, a hell of a lot cheaper than a phone billWhat is one thing you don't leave home without?walletWhat's the most painful experience you've ever had?my son dyingCan you type with your eyes closed?yesCan you ski?noCan you speak in sign language?noCan you do the butterfly stroke?noCan you say the alphabet backwards effortlessly?not effortlesslyCan you tie a knot in a cherry stem with your tongue?No. Can you run a mile in under ten minutes?HELL NOCan you stand the sight of blood?yepCan you read palms or tarot cards?No.Can you admit it when you're wrong?Yes. But I try not to be.Can you ask for help when you need it?Yes.Can you tie a necktie?I don't knowCan you successfully pierce someone's ear?I don't knowCan you play soccer?noCan you sing?I *can* but it sounds awfulCan you name three kinds of clouds?No.Can you make a joke out of anything?Depends on the mood.Can you perform CPR on another human?NoDo you know what CPR stands for?no.Can you read minds?No, but I'm pretty decent at reading expressions.Can you write better poetry than Shakespeare?No.Can you speak more than one language?No.Do you know karate?No. Can you freestyle?freestyle what? Reining? Dressage? I don't know.

Terve

Ok, so it's been awhile since I wrote anything... and I do mean *any*-fucking-thing. I have so many WIP's going, I feel like I'm never going to get them all done. I need to just sit down and start writing. NOW!*moment of silence, with the exception of my mother's birds chirping in the background and my dogs slurping up water.*I'm bored stiff. My back hurts too much for me to do anything really constructive and I'm panicking because I can't work until my back is all better... which means I can't make money to save for my trip to Finland/London/Holland/Germany next year.*panics*On a good note, since I've been at home, I've been able to motivate Mom into starting one of the, as yet, unrideable horses. Treasure is now officially "Started under saddle". She has had three rides, three days in a row and is doing very well. Normally, I would be the one crawling up on her for the first time but that's not a good idea with the current state of my back. Does anyone know where I can get a new spine? Literally, I mean. Anyway, progress is going very good with the horses. Mom has done a fantastic job training her colt, Saint and I think she's finally found HER riding horse. Great! Now I can have mine back! lol Honestly though, she did a really good job with mine too. I'm proud of her. Go Mom! :)The weather here is messing with my head. We had a few weeks of 80-100 degree weather and yesterday it started raining. Now, it's cold! It can't be more than 60 degrees outside and so wet. The ground is soggy. Yuck.My dog, Rocky, is angry with me. I gave him a bath and soaked his feet in bleach water. Hopefully that will kill whatever it is in his feet that is making him gnaw on them. His poor toes are all swollen and raw. Hopefully, the bleach water will do the trick, or it's back to the vet, again, for more tests and such. Back to my WIP's. *SIGH*I have the Todd/Hoot BHD fic I've started. Then there is the sequal to Ja Niin Se Alkoi that I have no idea why I wrote and pretty much have abandoned.And THEN, there's the pic challenge that I'm supposed to be writing with Alexis. I had this plot idea and I told her about it. She went CRAAAZY over it and I told her she was welcome to write it. She insists that I have to help. *sobs* why?? She's about a zillion times better writer than I am... and besides, I don't even really like to write! I much prefer reading but sometimes these plot rats just appear from thin air and start harrassing me until I cave and write something anyway. I'm so weak. If I don't write another chapter of Something Wicked and post it soon, I'm gonna get kicked off of the list, I'm thinking. I'm scared to see how far beyond dues I am. Right, must work on that one first, I don't want to get the big boot in the ass.Nähdään myöhemmin!

*staring at clock in horror*

It's nearly 6am and I haven't slept yet. Of course, I work at night, typically, so it makes sense that I don't sleep much on my nights off, but I have to take my horse to the vet at 10am. It's an hour drive and, depending on how willing she is to get in the trailer with only me there to coax her in, well, it could be a long morning.*eyes glaze over* Soon I shall take a shower. First, I need to gather the energy to do so.I'm so out of practice for writing. I have a sex scene to finish and while it's all playing out beautifully in my mind, my fingers are suddenly afflicted with idiocy and inability to translate pictures into words. Maybe I should chop them off...I think I have pnemonia. In fact, I'm pretty sure I do. Breathing has become difficult. Especially taking deep breaths. It's slightly painful and I can feel my heart take off when my brain realizes I can't breathe. Instant panic attack for about 5 seconds until I can relax enough to remember to breathe shallow and slow. Who gets pnemonia when it's 100 degrees outside? I'm surrounded by plot rats of various fandoms and they're all gnawing at my ankles. This can't be good.ok, the sun is now crossing over the horizon. A nap is in order.

*stabstompshootdie*

I hate my job. No, wait. That's not completely true. I love the people I care for. I love getting to know them. I hate the political bullshit that goes with it. I hate the utter humiliation of telling people where I work and their reply being "Oh yeah, I read about that place in the paper. They lost their MEDICARE Coverage." I've been there a grand total of 2 months now and we are already being threatened with being shut down because a few people have their heads so far up each other's asses they can't breathe properly anymore. 18 people are moving out of the nursing home in the next few weeks. EIGHTEEN. Apparently the state came through when I was home having my allergic, wtf is happening to me, reaction to lydocain (sp) so I missed all the excitement. Final results? Up to 17 violations. SEVENTEEN! Almost all of them involving paperwork done by LPN's or RN's. Falsifying documents, etc...What a clusterfuck.Then, this morning, this completely bitter, hateful and impossible to please BITCH comes in and starts claiming that no one is taking care of the residents right. That we aren't making sure they are clean, we're not turning them in bed, we're not doing a damn thing all night.Oh. I'm sorry. I guess that two 55 gallon barrels of pissed on sheets just magically appeared overnight! I looked at her and said, "huh. I wonder where I was when I was supposedly not working." I ran my ass off last night. Hell, we do every night, but we're "not doing anything." You know, what a hateful and nasty thing to say to someone who's been run ragged all night long because the state, in all their wisdom has decided that it's better for people to be able to fall out of bed on their head "because it's their choice to". God forbid we do anything to PREVENT them from falling because "that's restraining them from doing what they want". Oh yes, we are evil people for trying to prevent broken bones.I hate this line of work. I really do. I hate the bullshit politics, I hate working for a bunch of backstabbing, two faced, lying women who don't have enough drama in their life so they do all they can to stir up shit at work.I should have stayed with the carnival.

a fic!

*squeee* Title: The Opportune MomentAuthor: Nen-RekhRating: NC-17Disclaimer: This didn't happen. This is fiction. I gain nothing. No harm or foul intended towards anyone.Summary: Eicca realizes his chance is at hand************1.You know how they say you can find anything on the internet? Boy, were they right! Search engines are cool, you type something in and sometimes you get the oddest results. For instance, I went to google.com, typed in the name of my band, 'Apocalyptica', clicked the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button and found the strangest thing....Have you ever heard of something called "slash"? I hadn't, until today... Ok, I take that back, I'm familiar with the feeling and idea of having sex, or making love, with another man, but I didn't know that people write such fantasies and then posted them on the internet!Boy, do I feel out of the loop. After my initial shock at seeing my name with Perttu's involved in a most interesting plot, I realized it was the answer to my prayers.How does one go about revealing their deepest, darkest, most hidden secret to the very reason for the secret? For a long time, I have been in love with Perttu. I'm talking deep, scare me shitless, love. If we lived anywhere but here, maybe it would be easier, but this is Finland. Men just aren't openly gay, hell, two men hugging has people raising their eyebrows. So, how do I tell Perttu that I want to strip him naked and do all sorts of lewd and lustful things to his body? He's my best friend, my bandmate and the one person on this earth I love more than anything. I don't even know if he's gay. I mean, he doesn't have a girlfriend that I've noticed, but who the hell has time for one? We're so busy with the band, plus our 'other' jobs, there just isn't enough hours in a day for anything else.Back to the point. I love Perttu and haven't had the guts or found the right way to tell him. Nights I've spent, laying awake and staring at the ceiling, wishing for a sign.Well, my agony has come to an end, I've found a way to tell him without him even knowing! Yippy! Who the fuck is Nen-Rekh? Nice name, exotic and completely incognito. It's perfect.I finish reading the story, somewhat dismayed to find that it's not complete. I bookmark the site and spend a few moments reading our phorum before executing my plan. Once complete, I sit back, grinning. A touch of guilt goes through me, thinking of the person that actually wrote the story. I hope they aren't a regular poster on the phorum, they might be pissed at me stealing their story and identity.*******************Meanwhile, on the other side of the globe, the real Nen-Rekh is awoken by the telephone and is promptly in the throes of an anxiety attack when learning the recent events that have taken place on the Apocalyptica phorum.*******************2. I'm in the kitchen, elbow deep in flour, oils and other assorted ingredients, when Perttu comes barreling through my front door the day after I began a life of crime. What? You've never heard of identity theft? I'm concentrating on making dinner when the front door flies open and slams against the wall. Flour poofs everywhere when I jump, the shit nearly scared completely out of me."Eicca! Have you seen the phorum?" He's shrieking at me, hands flapping in the air.Oh shit. This is not a good time for me... I pull my face into a look of confusion, peering at him through the flour cloud as though he's the crazy one here."Do I look like I have time to check the phorum? Look at this mess!" He just blinks at me, at the disaster I've made of my kitchen. "Good God, Eicca, what are you making?"Hoping he's been effectively distracted, it doesn't usually take much after all, I scowl at him. "Nothing. Now leave me alone, I'm busy!" I almost laugh in relief when he turns away. Yes! Mission accomplisssshhhh...shit. He's coming back. "Wait! You have to see the phorum! Look at what someone posted!" Fuck! "Ok ok,... keep your pantyhose on." May as well get this over with. I wash my hands, clear up to my armpits, and my face. I told you I made a hell of a mess. I look at him when I'm clean and shoo him to the computer, making a show over how annoyed I am when, in reality, I think I'm about to puke. "Well, show me whatever it is you want to show me."He bounds over to my desk, flipping the damn thing on and taps his fingers impatiently as it boots. Yammering like an idiot the whole time. "There was this post, someone new, I've never seen their name before, but they posted from Finland, I know that much. The subject line said something like "Eicca and Perttu: the beginning of their story" or some such shit. I was like, 'what the fuck?' and opened it and there was this link that took me to a story. Oh My God, Eicca. You would never believe what it was! I read it, than ran right over here. Here, sit down, read this." I'm shoved into my chair, the page he brings up blinks to rapid life on my screen. I hope he doesn't notice that the loading time is so fast. I curse at myself for not clearing my history. Oh, he's still babbling at me. "Someone has a really wild imagination, Eicca. I can't believe someone would write this and post it on the phorum!"I'm pretending to read the screen, my thoughts in a whirlwind trying to gauge his reaction. He doesn't seem really upset or pissed or disgusted but he doesn't seem too thrilled with it either. I think the shock is over-riding everything else. How do I play this? Be cool? Shocked? Horrified? Damn, I wish I had thought this far ahead. Ok, scroll down, read it... look mystified...Soon, I'm engrossed in the story and find myself nearly panting and shifting in my seat as I image Perttu in the shower, jerking himself off to thoughts of me. My hand strays to ease the pressure in my pants. Damn, it's hot in here...suddenly I realize he's reading over my shoulder! I literally feel my face flushing as I snatch my hand away from my crotch."Eicca!" Oh shit. Vittu. Fuck. Paskat. He saw me. "Don't tell me you actually got excited by that!" I swear, if my head gets any redder, it's going to blow off."Ok, I won't." My eyes pop open in horror when I realize what's just come out of my mouth. I did NOT mean to say that! Oh God, help me. Please?3.Alas, it was not to be. No great chasm came to swallow me and my shame. Lightning didn't smite me dead and a tidal wave, unfortunatly, didn't come to sweep me away. Damnit!So, I got the unmitigated joy of watching Perttu's face go through a number of expressions. Blank stare... disbelief... shock... lots of rapid blinking... Under any other circumstance, it would have been amusing to see. He's really quite expressive when he's been rendered speechless, but right now I'm too paralyzed with my own shame to enjoy the show.Instead, I blush. I can feel it, going clear up to my hair. You think Perttu's ears go red? You've obviously never seen mine go up in flames. I wonder if my hair is getting singed yet."Eicca?" I paused in my sniffing the air for the scent of burnt hair to look up at him."Huh?" Oh jeez. He's got this look on his face... it scares me to be honest. I feel his hand touch my shoulder, squeeze, then travel down and across my chest. I'm staring, unable to move, my brain long shorted out from the stress. Hell, we all know it's been AWOL since before I posted that fucking story. So, here I sit, with my bandmate, the lust of my life, feeling me up and smirking down at me like he's going to eat me for dinner and make me like it. Oh please God, yes.His fingers reach the waistband of my jeans and I swear there's going to be a jailbreak from my pants any minute now. I can't help tightening my stomach, pulling in and hoping he'll delve deeper. Please please please touch me. My eyes drift shut."I am touching you." I feel Perttu's breath against my hair.Oh God, I said that out loud? That's it, my life is... what did he say?I look up at him through the haze of lust before my eyes. Strange, but he looks quite content to be here, touching me. Am I dreaming? Hallucinating? Maybe I've had some bizarre kitchen accident that's knocked me out and I'm making all this up. Where am I? Mother? Where's my Mommy?Insistant fingers slide into my jeans, tease over the head of my cock and I forget any thoughts at all about any relatives of mine. Where ever they are, I hope it's far, far away!Suddenly, I'm free of my jeans, his hand wrapped completely around my length as he strokes me slowly. My head falls back, colliding with his shoulder, as I arch into his touch. Ohhhh God... "Read it." "Huh?" Oh, I'm so articulate! "The story... read it to me." I stare blindly at the screen, trying desperately to get my eyes to focus properly. Finally, I find the words and begin to read, my voice shaking as I stutter."His soap-slicked hand found his erection. He braced his free arm against the shower wall, his forehead resting on it. Perttu watched his fingers wrap around his straining cock, the purpled head beaded with pre-cum. As he brought his hand slowly up and back down, he thought of Eicca, imagined him here, his large frame curled behind him. Protecting him... wanting him. He could almost feel Eicca's arms sliding around him. Eicca's hand touching him, fingers twining with his own. Eicca's lips nibbling across his shoulder, up his neck before whispering in his ear."I'm panting now, unable to keep myself from jerking my hips. Fuck... fuck! His hand is gripping me tighter now, the strokes taking on purpose and rhythm. Yes... make me come Perttu... please... Oh fuck, he's whispering in my ear, his lips grazing over the sensative skin. "You like that, Eicca? You want to fuck me in a shower? You want me to jerk off while thinking of you?" Am I supposed to answer that? Someone, anyone, give me a clue! I can't do anything but watch my cock fuck through his fist. Reality is turning out to be so much better than my fantasies. Almost there... Fuck! He's slowing down... no no no... please keep going... don't stop!Again, he's whispering. "Do you, Eicca? Do you want me to fantasize about you? Answer me, or you don't get off."Oh God, why? Why me? His fingers are tracing over my length, the tips of them plucking at the head, following the ridge and underside to my balls then back again. Mini-me is twitching and jerking, begging for more. Vittu, the sight of it is so hot...A high pitched keening sound squeezes past my throat and, desperate for him to finish me, I relent and nod. "Yes."He chuckles against my hair. Thinking I've been had, I'm about two seconds from belting him in the mouth when he renews his grip on my cock and, resumes stroking me, harder and faster than before. My eyes cross, hands gripping the arms of my computer chair as I brace back, preparing to blow the roof right off. I'm so wrapped up in what I'm feeling that I don't notice any changes until it's too late.Suddenly, his lips are pressed against mine but gone again before I can respond. Still reeling, I hear his voice again, low and throaty in my ear. "I do think about you, Eicca. Every time I make myself come, I say your name." Oh God. Oh my fucking sweet God. Just the thought.... Suddenly, I'm coming. Wet heat is wrapped snugly around the head of my cock and I watch through crossed eyes as Perttu sucks me dry. Oh fuck! Oh vittu! My right hand goes to his hair, clasping the back of his head as I drive deeper into his mouth. When I finally come back to earth, I look down to see Perttu sitting back on his heels, watching me with an amused expression."You ok?" I try to laugh but the sound that erupts from me is more like that of a choking mule. "Yeah, just peachy. Great. Fantastic."He laughs at me. The little fucker actually laughs.I should send this Nen-Rekh person a thank you card.THE END

bad dog!

my 4 yo nephew David was attacked by my Mom's dog, Panda. I woke up to someone screaming bloody murder and when I opened my door, a very freaked out Stella flung herself in my lap. When I went into the bathroom, where the screams were coming from, I found my stepdad cleaning up David's face. I asked him what happened and he said that Panda attacked David. I asked why and he said that Panda was lying on the floor when David tripped over her. She attacked his face. He has two punctures, one on his cheek, near his top lip and another under his bottom lip. Plus, two scratches VERY close to his eye. He's very lucky.I said, "Well, Panda and I are going outside then." Called the vet to make sure Panda was up to date on rabies, which she was. (She wasn't my dog, I didn't know for sure) Called David's mom and asked about medical coverage, told her what happened. She said she was going to kill that dog and I told her it was too late. Anyway, David is fine. Took him to town to the ER and he was very calm thru the whole thing. He kept telling everyone how brave he is and how he was ok. lol I kept him distracted by practising counting in Finnish, (which he's doing quite well in) Panda wasn't old, only 4 years old. She was a Lab/GSD/Chow/Pit Bull and possibly Husky mix. She had a quick, painless death, far less painful than the bites on David's face. The good thing is, David's not afraid of Rocky or Stella. They've been glued to him ever since we returned home and he's been hugging on them and playing. *whew* Deby

help. me.

Monday, I had the Norplant that was in my arm removed. It was supposed to be a real minor thing. I had Norplant put into my arm after Troy was born in 1993. It was due to come out in 1998 but I never got around to it, just left it there. Finally, I had it taken out on 19 April. Was supposed to go in, leave and work that night. Did that happen? Oh no....Apparently, I had a bad reaction to the Lidocaine (sp?) they used to numb my arm. It put me completely out! I felt myself passing out, it was like in slow motion and I said something like, "I feel light headed..." and suddenly, I couldn't talk anymore. Everything went fuzzy and then black. I could kind of hear people talking, but I couldn't figure out what they were saying and I couldn't talk at all. Suddenly, I hear, "Deby? Deeeebyyyy....?" and I managed to pry my eyes open. I peered up at her and said, "huh?" She asked me if I was ok and I said, "I'm hungry."It messed me up. Even now, my head still feels like it's flying in the clouds and in pieces and my arms and legs don't feel like they are attached anymore. Everything feels and looks weird. I ended up staying at the Dr's office almost 2 hours before they would let me leave. The nurse said that when I passed out, they thought I was getting ready to go into seizures because my eyes rolled back and I got all weird. They about put me on my head to get the blood back to my brain but when I woke up, I couldn't tell how I was laying. It's like my body was numb. Didn't work Monday night or Tuesday night because of how much it messed me up and I still don't feel right. They did manage to take the Norplant out of my arm and, after seeing them, I think I should have just let them stay in! My arm hurts too, where they cut me open and took them out. Everytime I sat down Tuesday, I'd fall asleep in a real surreal daze. Not at all restful. I'm exhausted and I constantly feel like I'm going to heave up my toenails. Very strange reaction! WARNING!! WARNING!!This is where it gets gross...Basically, I have the shits from hell. Pure stomach acid. It's gone on all week, but only once every few hours. Now it's a several times an hour and I feel like I'm going to start puking at the same time. :( I hate this. *pouts* I need pity! I need sympathy! I need an ice cube to sit on, my ass is on FIRE!waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

so...

um. yeah. new LJ! I rule... or... something.Actually, I'm cold. My fingers are frozen to death! I need a hot, hot shower but we ran out of propane today and the truck won't be here to refill our propane tank until tomorrow. Damnit. I wonder how long it would take to microwave enough water to make a hot bath? Hmmmm.....Role playing is fun. Especially with my Jooli-girly. *snugs*

*pets new identity*

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